Sounds awesome, right? I thought it would be a great opportunity to learn and grow, until I started thinking a little more. Then I started wondering and worrying - what is he going to say? What if he thinks it sucks? What if he tells me that I'm wasting my time? That I'll never be able to get a job in Graphic Design? What am I going to do then?
Last night, I laid in bed, thinking about this. I thought "Why am I doubting myself so much? Aren't I good at what I do? People tell me that, right? Are they just being nice? Or maybe they just don't know what they're talking about? No, that's not it. I'm good at it. I am."
I had myself convinced for a little while. Then I thought "Gosh, Megan, don't you believe in yourself at all? Don't you have any self-esteem?"
"That's not self-esteem," I thought, "That's just pride. Pride is bad. I'm supposed to be humble. This is good."
And that's where I got really confused and gave up and went to sleep.
What's the difference between pride and self-esteem? Humility and doubting myself?
http://thesaurus.com/browse/pride Take a look for yourself! One of the definitions of pride is self-esteem! Over half of that list are things that I would say are not very Godly. Maybe we are not supposed to have any self-esteem.