I promised to write more about Christmas and the rush of emotions brought by being "home", so here it is.
Home was good. So good. Too good.
Surrounded by the familiarity of ornaments from my childhood, cuddly kitties, and a family that loves me no matter what, it's easy to fall back into that comfortable life.
You know the one I'm talking about. The one I used to live, where I went to work and I came home and I ate dinner and I caught up on my tv shows and I went to bed. Repeat the next day.
It's so comfortable.
I didn't want to leave it. Like, really. I would so much rather be still sitting on that couch eating my mom's cooking.
But at the same time, it was a good reminder of why I had to leave it.
I believe that God is so much bigger than that comfortable life; He is so much bigger than me.
Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. God showed how much he loved us by sending his one and only Son into the world so that we might have eternal life through him. This is real love—not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins. Dear friends, since God loved us that much, we surely ought to love each other. No one has ever seen God. But if we love each other, God lives in us, and his love is brought to full expression in us. And God has given us his Spirit as proof that we live in him and he in us. Furthermore, we have seen with our own eyes and now testify that the Father sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. All who confess that Jesus is the Son of God have God living in them, and they live in God. We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love.God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world. Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. We love each other because he loved us first. 1 John 4:7-18
God loves us so much. His plan is for us to love each other. We, His disciples, are supposed to be known for our love!
"Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.” John 13:35 NLT
The Bible is pretty clear that faith without works is dead. Read James. What good is believing all of this without doing anything about it?
That's what prompted me to get off of that couch and leave my comfortable life and move to Chicago to love people in the first place.
And so I needed to do some reflecting and realize that those same reasons still apply.
And so I'm back here, trying to live and to love - for Him.
Because He first loved me.