Do you know the song "The Motions" by Matthew West?
I guess it's pretty popular on Christian radio right now, so maybe you do...
I heard it in chapel, quite a while back. I remember singing the words, not knowing the tune, but singing anyways. The words touched me. Here they are:
"This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care
If I break
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just ok
Is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life
I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions
Not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love
Make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something
Take me all the way"
What touched me that Tuesday in chapel is this:
How much I want those words to be true. I want to not wanna go through the motions. I want to so badly. But I'm not there yet... I want to be enthusiastic about life and what God is doing. I hate saying "fine" when someone asks how I'm doing. I have shrugging my shoulders and saying "not much" when I'm asked how it's going. I want passion. I want it, but I don't have it. Yet.
I think wanting it must be the first step, though. Right?
In this world today, I think this is a problem. We're all too "fine." We live everyday, just going through the motions of day to day life. We don't think about what we're doing and why and all those detail.
So this is my goal right now. For everything. Life, classes, art, and just everything. No more "motions". Passion. Enthusiasm. Excitement. I want it.