it's finally may!  spring is here!!  i just love it so much!

the last week of classes is upon us and it's so hard to believe that after two more weeks, i will officially be a JUNIOR in college - halfway done here at northwestern.  oh my.
i am so relieved to have my two big final papers - theology and art history - done!  it's just such a weight off my shoulders.  i feel like everything else i have to do for school is not so bad.

however, i could not get to sleep last night because i was worrying/ freaking out about other things.  especially because i am flying on an airplane a lot in the next month.  i'm flying home from school on the 15th, then on the 20th my family is flying to seattle for libby's wedding (!!!) and then on the 27th i am flying to chicago for camp.  which is fine; i like to fly and i'm not afraid to do it by myself or anything.  the big thing is that i have to fit everything i need for the entire summer into just enough luggage to take on a plane.  it's scary and i'm afraid it's not going to fit or something...

at p&w tonight, i was thinking about how much i love being in such a christian community with so many people my own age.  to be able to look out and see hundreds and hundreds of college students lifting their hands in worship, praising god and just wanting to live their enitre life for jesus.  the next generation - that's what we are.  it's a powerful thing.
i also thought about how my views of worship have changed so much in the last two years.  according to the dictionary, worship is " reverent honor and homage paid to God or a sacred personage, or to any object regarded as sacred."  two years ago, i would go as far as saying that i didn't know or understand what worship was, let alone having experienced it for myself.  i know that everyone has different ways of worshiping and stuff, but i don't think i really and truly ever just worshiped god, without thinking of anything else, before.  i never, ever would have raised my hands or danced before god.  but now i do.  and it's the highlight of my week often - just singing my heart out with love for jesus.  and i'm thankful for that change.  this is a song - the heart of worship - by matt redman. and i think it is very true and important to think about.

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than just a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

Its all about you
Jesus

so yeah, last week of classes, here i come!  just think, very soon i will get to walk out of the very last spanish class i have to take!  i am sooooo excited for that day!  i think i will dance all the way back to my room.  or something like that...  but for now i have to study for my quiz. :(

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