So, over the last few months, God has really blessed me with peace about several of the things that I had been struggling with feeling of discontent over – mainly, not having a boyfriend. Like many girls my age, I desire to have a boyfriend, to experience those things, and eventually get married and have kids. I know that I am still young, but I still feel like the clock is ticking.

I've watched most of my friends enter into various relationships over the past 6 months or so and while I have celebrated with them, deep down I felt left out of it all. So for several months, I was thinking, wondering what I need to do to "get a boyfriend."

But a few weeks ago, God used a conversation with a good friend to show me that when it is time for me to enter into that phase of life, He will provide me with that special person. I do not need to do anything – He already has it all planned out. I truly believe that he has placed those desires in my heart for a reason and that it will happen someday, but I don't know when. And that's okay – I don't need to know that.

So then I was wondering… If I don't have to do anything, what am I supposed to do?? But in the past week or so, I've realized the answer to that question. What I am called to do is to build my relationship with Jesus. To read my Bible more, to be more consistent in devotions, to pray more – to build a solid foundation in my faith for the rest of my life. And I am supposed to become a more godly woman. To strive to be more and more Christ-like. To embody the fruit of the spirit.

And that is what I am supposed to do while I wait.


But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Galations 5:23